Interesting? #4

Here's a tomato plant that I brought in a fe weeks. ago, before one of our threatened storms.  Perhaps it was the threatened nor'easter that never really was.  It's been growing quite happily in my sunroom and even putting out tomatoes;

 I am not sure if I am really a bit calmer now that treatment is being sorted, or if I am so completely panicked that I have suppressed it deep inside some unreachable part of my brain.  

My tumor (lesion?) is considered stage two-three.  Not great but could be very mush worse.  Just have to wait and see what info the next appointment brings.

Yes, I am royally pissed off.  But I honestly think it is more due the current state of the country that my physical problems.  I've been feeling like this since the orange puffball was elected.  Toes crossed for November 3.

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Interesting Times #3

Oh please let them stop being quite so interesting!

I think I have straightened out my referrals.  It will mean traveling to Kent County Hospital in Warwick, but from what my PCP and others have said this is some of the best in the state.  First appointment is in two weeks and then we'll see, grasshopper.......we'll see........

The new drier is working very well indeed.  We are going to be doing many loads over the next few weeks.  Thanks heaven the well is full!

We've have returned to summer weather!  Last week I was wearing sweats, this week I am in shorts.  Hey!  It's New England what do you expect!  I am thinking about bringing plants in for the winter.  These lovely fall days can lull one into a false sense of security and then POW! it's snowing.

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Interesting Times....Part 2

 So I arrived for appointments yesterday, only to be told that this provided did not cover my health plan.  They had tried call on my land line, but of course I wasn't there.  Somehow my cel phone never got entered into additional contacts.  So I hade a forty-five minute journey for nothing.  I will say that doc and nurses were sympathetic and spent time explaining various tests I have had done.  The worst was getting my ride service to arrange my ride hoe.  It took about an hour, but was finally rescued by a very kind driver.

The odd thing is that the panic I have been feeling since the original colonoscopy has gone.  I feel very much in control and will start contacting my various docs on moving forward. Perhaps my new goal is. Beating the System.

On a happier note our new drier just arrived.  It was lovely hanging laundry out in the summer sun, but WINTER IS COMING. and I really do need to wash some blankets and stuff which will take forever to line dry.  Never thought I would be so thrilled over something  as mundane as a clothes drier, but there you are!

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Interesting Times

 October 7.............I've had a cat scan, a visit with the radiation oncologist, a MRI done in great detail of my pelvic area.  The cancer appears to be limited to one area in the rectum/anal area.  Meeting with radiology on Tuesday to prep for a series of thirty radiation treatments.  There will also be chemotherapy given first and last weeks of radiation treatment.  My docs are all encouraging, but I am not feeling it.  I don't think it's the cancer so much as these difficult times we are living in.

 October 13........Most mornings I wake up in a state of panic and dread.  It's very strange, as I have no memory of dreams or nightmares.  Today I have appointments with radiology and chemo to map out a treatment plan.  Part of me is just annoyed at the whole thing; part of me is hopeful, part of me just says, 'Why bother in these times we live in.'  Part of me wants to curl up in a ball and hide under the covers.

Once I am out of bed, make tea, feed the birds I begin to feel much better.  I am registered for my mail in ballot.  But of course I will check several times to make sure this is true.

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Daddy Took the T-Bird Away!

Hares and Rabbits 

Had the colonoscopy on Monday and the results are not good.  Cancerous growth at the rectum.  Waiting for more results, but a  CT Scan shows only the one spot, so hopefully bloodwork will confirm.  Docs seem think it can be treated with radiology without surgery.  Have a radiologist appointment next week so we'll see grasshopper.............we'll see........

Meanwhile I feel like I have been hit with a ton of bricks and have only just begun to sort this in my head.  I may mention this on FB &/or IG but I will do most of my posting here.  Putting down in words does help me get perspective and make sense, but I  am not really up for a lot of weird advice. 

I haven't felt a bit of creativity until a few days ago.  Woke up this morning thinking about hanbuilt travel mugs and bunnies.  Perhaps a strange combo, but you never know. As always, thanks for stopping by.................*s*

PREP! PREP! PREP!

 Colonoscopy is scheduled for Monday Sept 28 at 8:00Am, which means Sunday will be prep day!  I don't know why I am in such a tizzy over this one, I have been doing these for twenty years or so.  And yet I have a VERY BAD FEELING ABOUT THIS ONE.  Perhaps it's because I don't have a lot to obsess about these days, more anxiety...?  And yes, I know the prep is the worst part of the whole procedure.

We are also expecting a major nor'easter this week end.  If the power goes I am not sure how things will proceed.  I'm going to put a call in to my doc to find out,    I will do updates for my own peace of mind.  Putting fears in writing helps calm me down,

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Fun! Fun! Fun!

FUN!   I use the word advisedly.  This afternoon I have my intake appointment for a long overdue colonoscopy. The need for one was the final nail to make me get my hip done, which has been a good thing. With my usual ability to find anxiety wherever I go I am imagining the worst outcome possible.  More on this later.

Labor Day was pretty normal.  Some call it the end of summer.  Me?  I think that is up to Mother Nature to decide.  Personally, my toes are crossed for one of our long, warm autumns.  Petunias at Thanks giving are always a treat.

Meanwhile the sun is shining and a load of laundry is waiting to be done............after I have another cup of tea and look at the flamingos.  Every yard needs some flamingoes.  

We'll see.grasshopper......we'll see........

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